the explanation lies within..

Its been a wild ride

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 21:35:38 GMT

SoO welcome aboard the peter train of laziness. Okay, so First i got a girlfriend.....awesome, very awesome.......Then i lost her....okay, moving on.

Things i like right now
I got a new studio set up with 24 track fully automated Akai and SLS boards and new biamped monitors, new mics, and a pro tools type comp wav form editing program. SIck.

My job is going well, Its easy, haha and we hired some new girls who are nice, some are interesting haha. Well we will see how that pans out with the other grls. I sense tension already.

Vacation was wicked fun, untill the end but that nite was funny too. HOPEFULLY this week will fly by. Dude i need to jam, none of my musicians are jammin lately, i think vaca was still rad tho.

Hit me up with comments questions w/e, im kinda out of things to say.

"Still smooth like Miles Davis
Beneath her sad sweet skin
The tear drops fall in pockets,
Memories kept within.
Surpressing all the anger
Towards men, towards everyone
I cant believe this bullshit
She cant believe its done
Grace us with a smile, endearing, eyes so strong
SO bright and so bold, but wont be bright for long"

Creative Writing 101

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 03:29:54 GMT

A boy looks outside his window. A man he sees looking back inside. The man is young, but old enough to be his father. Within an instant this man has dissapeared,

leaving a pool of water on the ground. The boy decides to investigate. Trodding down the carpetted mountains, the moccasons wearing a boy make their way to the

front door, and slowly pull the oak tree back. Inside of the real world, unsheltered, the boy realizes the puddle is gone, and he needs more sleep. Laying down in the

outside sun, beating, shining, so vast, so warm. The boy assumes, this is in likeness to heaven, but never imagined such hell on earth. In his dreams come angels, but

above his unconscious state are deamons. The young mand now beaten with age screams WHY and distrubs the slumber. Eyes open, sun burns, white beard

reflects off bi focussing glasses, and life is washed away. Inside this white room, the walls drip with black, and the floor teams with crimson, of contrast to the black.

The red seems but pure compared to the black of night, and is overtaking. The walk down the path, is winding, but the road ahead is quite clear, and the boy has but

one map, one compass, one flashlight to guide his way. Yet the map is in German, and the compass spins like a top, and the flashlight needs batteries, but the size is

uncertain. The winding drive, and blazing increase of slope is of un paralleled familiarity, leading to one's door. The flag stones are as flag ships, proud, tried and

true, marks of distinguishing character and grace, elements of stability, one can count on in such a place. It is way past curfue, not even sure of the date, but being as

desperate as late, the boy reaches in his pocket for his keys, but alas they are as absent as the motor skills. At a last ditch effort, and with a breath, and a silent

prayer, reaching for the door handle, but nothing is there. Finally making contact, a surge is felt through out his body. THe boy is dazed, shocked, and convulsed

beyond the electric and sexual prowace of a thousand kilowatts of love. Awaking to the smell of smokey grease, cooking in the kitchen, with head throbbing, and

bottle in hand, he awakes to his notebook, and acheviements. Calculus, Chem, and Etihics, in which he recieved only straight A's. But 100% of life, means further

struggling, for better days.

I walk these lines....Of Blasphemy

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 03:25:42 GMT

Hey everybody........

So this weekend was fun. Friday I went off too my friends party in randolph. All i have to say is maturity level is just reallly low. But Diana accompanied me and it was so fun to have everyone asking me quesions and being like OH i love ur gf. I knew they would. WHats not to love.

So then Sat I went to guit fiddle center with mike and vek. Haha hilariuos car ride. Fists on the roof, black kids brawlin, pretzel guy, faaackin gons and one way streets....LATA notsob. PS hardcore kids are gay.....

So that was sat.

Sunday woke up early for work, threw up, went back to bed. Then woke up at like 1 and recorded a guy who did josh groban cover songs. He was really good..

Well im out of things to say. Things are going okay, trying to hang in till april vaca but really tired right now.

So riddle me this......

If u have any strong feelings towards me good bad or otherwise tell me about them here on a comment.

"Resting limbs so weary
As we lie here still....
The night is bleak and dreary
INside this cotton fortress, not a chill
Desperate to carry conversation
Like the cross a burden on my bacK
Isnt this lovely...said with such elation
Reply a tepid mHmM with half a whispers attack

Succome to silence wherein
Disctonent lies beneath
A petite tug at my chin
an "i love you" smile with pearly white teeth
Suddenly no words can convey
The body of elation sustains
Bleeding with perfection,may
Dispose of residual pasts' pains."

Realizing that I over analyze

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 19:00:28 GMT

I realized the only reason i hookedup with tons of people is to feel good about myself.
I realized the only reason I drank was to make me feel better about my life
I realized the only reason I sat around instead of going out was because
I realized these things tonight.
>~I realized I was missing out on life~<
I realized my friends were all changing
I realized I was the different one
I realized i cause the stress in my life
I reallzed all of this tonight
I realized my analysis was totally whack.
>~I realized that in 10 I don't want to realize that I want my childhood back~<
I realized what really makes me happy
I reallized what really makes me sad
I realized spur of the moment, isn't all that bad
I realized a dying wish, takes a lifetime to achieve
I realized the best things I said to you I didnt even mean.
I realized all this, yet I have no regrets
>~Because I realized that my short life, isn't quite too short yet~

REal quick

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 03:51:41 GMT

BYe the way if u guys are so cool as to leave comments, how bout u annonymous pieces of vagina leave ur names????

bitches

Welcome back welcome back welcome back

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 03:49:42 GMT

Its been an ill minute...

Well this weekend was fun. Friday we did nothing. But sat i chilled with diana and my buddy Pad devs. Missed that kid and his fuckin hyper boarderline retardation and mental instability. haha im kidding with u pat. I met his gf, shes a lovely young lady, exceptionally nice, very shy, but i think it was just because she had never met me before. Anyway we call watched blue streak( great movie) and kinda kicked it. Diana tried to play drums, honestly, not mad, much better rythm then most. HAH then i was going to dance but i realized........IM terrible at dancing haha.

Sunday was coolio for shooolio....
FIrst i had work from fuckin 6-12
That was intersting, i went on lots of catering to the blow job central of private schools, u guessed it Milton Academy. haha i was hoping to find a locker room full of my closest friends ready to get down to business ahaha kIDDING

SO that was cool

THen after that i had practice with the Foxx for the show on tuesday. WE went over evrytthing its gonna be awesome

Then i went to dropckick murhpy's. Saw the casualties, and brain failure, and DKM. Beautiful night. I love DKM, always have always will. Ull never see me sing along to that many songs. Oh yahhh

So right now im just kinda deciding on why i bother with myself sometimes. IM not going into elaborate detail because aparently what i type in my LJ pisses people off sometimes....SORRRRRRRRy fuckers.

So for being passionate about some things, and not being "laid back" aka lazy and not caring if things dont get done, im an asshole for being upset and shit. Wen i get pissed about sumthing not being done, im an asshole. OKay fine, i accept it. No more chill simonelli, im not simo the big fuckin dousche bag. Nice to meet u.....

OKay closing with a poem leave comments or questions, hopefully both, i want this one to be interactive u fuckshits.

"Broken hearted, weakended heart ache
The pain is dulled by insensitivity
Due to prolonged exposure

This all started, when we ended
IN between to me meant nothing
Because i regret it now

We're all moving, but love is stopping
All the anger gets the best of me
So lets all forget it now

If chesterfield is beckoning then take a back seat
To a life of elustrious naiivity

All the beautious disaster
Wreak havok on the mainland nearby
But no one seems to mind

Failure is hiding writing my name
on the list been deemed procrastination
I cant put this off much more

NO ones living, were all dying
Just to get a piece of anyting
Worth what we've fought for.

ANd the possibilitys of changing pace from depravity
Seems so cool inside all of the blazing heat."

Yayaya

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 00:08:52 GMT

alot of people are now overly concerned with STD. Just chill. Me and phil are friends again, me and mike always were. Theres less fighting now idk wat the deal is but im glad we are all boys.

For the coming week

Monday is a student concert at school to kick off senior week
Wat ebs
TUesay is the Foxx Show on the catwalk...yeee
WEdnesday is unplugged

Risk kuz its alot goin on at once..

Anyway
Everything is fine over here. Diana is awesome, im loving the realationship thing, and its really just chill. The term closes soon which is not coo kuz im fucked for my spanish grade but wat ever....

"because im armed and rehearsed
ready to let go at any thing and everything here
So take your best shot, at breaking my heart
Pull the trigger now let go of your fear
THese words are the bullets
With which i intend
To fix all the problems at hand
And these lines and the phrases
That break through the silence
Speaker louder then anything can"

OKay clarification

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 15:38:52 GMT

Phil u contributed alot, u wrote the songs we played. But when asked what he thought if i said i wanted to get back to gether

PhillC12: ill just get lazy again
PhillC12: i got lazy i know
PhillC12: i would do the same thing in your shoes

SOo aparently u didnt even contribute enough for your peace of mind. Its not my fault that I want to be famous and I look forward to recording and having something to show for my band. I said many many times that i felt it was the last straw and i always renegged and gave in and said fine ill give it another shot. And yet no matter how much i begged and pleaded and complained it led to fighting not work. I even said i wouldnt book shows untill we made a CD and i had many a show for us to play. Yet that did nothing, its almost as if the idea that no cd would be made was accepted. U wanna respond to something, respond to that. And everyone knew wat i was saying anyway, no need to flip out. I thought we were all mature here.

Oh yah

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 04:36:22 GMT

OKay few things. First Friday was a huge waste of time, and i quit the band. People are upset, what ever as someone who is a serious musician i cant stay in a band that does nothing im sorry. TO me if u want to be famous and you love music there is no excuse for not making it every minute of ur life. If u say u love music yet u bitch about recording, or u have un prosperous jams, then your just not living up to it ur not putting in the effort. And yea im playin in a funk type band. No big deal, I know funk isnt "cool" but i have a good time with it and its real musical. It however is not the reason for the separation, nor was it even a minute factor in my decision making process, the funk was always back seat to STD, untill now.

next on the agenda, I think im officially not single. That is pretty cool. Not really as scary as I thought it would be. I just need to behave and well thats it. And im sure i can do that. I love her she loves me, we shall see how it goes. Hopefully well!!!!

I have work tomorrow at 530 AM so that sucks. IM out for now. PS idc if im a drama queen, certain things upset me in life, and dont fuck with them. ACcept me for who i am. IM outski....peace and love

"fuck rap fuck rock fuck metal fuck ska
Fuck punk fuck emo fuck core fuck funk
fuck slash fuck country fuck jazz
Fuck hip hop fuck trance fuck techno fuck dance
Fuck music fuck work, fuck life in general
FUck artistic expression and creativity
Fuck being an artist
Fuck writing fuck recording
FUck all that it entails
FUCK!! I miss the music"

UPdate that ish noigga

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 04:39:02 GMT

http://www.thewebshite.co.uk/nickelback.htm

okay first off thats funny
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Thirdly my entry.

Today I had school, it was beat. Kind of a rough day so after school i Bounced TO b tree and grabbed some ice cream with Diana at friendly's. Just like idk i wanted ice cream and I wanted to see her so that was solid. Then we visited meg. Put me in a good mood. Oh so matt and i decided to fuck around in the rain today kuz we had the Ricer. So we are goin down a street and i pull a crazy right hand turn and matt decides to whip up the E break. Yea emergency break, not the hey wats this do lemme pull it break, and we fuckin skidded so huge and did a 180. So i decided to do a DOnut. So i go for it and matt rips that shit up again and we did an ILL 360 andthen some. Haha crazy skid. Then we jetted and did it again. Haa funny. So anywho Friday STD is goin at it again. For those of u who know weve been unsure of wats goin on. Hiatus or otherwise, but Friday is the tell tale day. Aparently this kid from MHS is comin in and rockin keys maybe. SIck, sick, i hear he is the absolute man. And that will be fun aparently there are some new songs. Okay a few other things. The DJ thing is goin great, keep the gigs comin....Possibility I will be the official DJ and light show for NDA PROM....ahaha fun. Its gonna rock. SEcondly recording goin well for the other bands. Anyone know anyting about SR follies at BC SKY go to it we are the house band (not std, but stealth foxx, sick band) ANd lastly i learned this. Life sucks then its over, so everyone should be nice to as many people as they can so wen u finally get to heaven god wont kick ur ass. Pete simonelli saying right there. Original. OKay well Im in a good mood and im now going to go pass out for a few then school start it all over tomorrow. NIght everyone ill update after the jam unless sumthin cool happens. Arite, peace out................

"ijust wanna see the spotlights
One glimse is all ill need
I just want to hold her tonight
Please take the lead
IM far to shy, far to reserved
To take the chance, take the head
Take the lead, lets go to bed
DEspite all ive learned im still the same
Despite all the lines, my approach is lame
I just want one fuckin chance, just one last
I just need you right here and now
Press my face against the glass
I just want to taste it,
Can you taste it.....taste the fame?"

If you dont know me by now

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 18:29:06 GMT

Whatsup GUys....

Aright i was lookin at people's My Space accounts. Shit those things are taking over. Now all along I have kinda been against Myspace because I rep LJ. If i want to I can put links to pics on LJ, so why not. But anyway I was gonna make a my space but i barely update this biotch.

Last Night was a great way to kick off the weekend. As much as I tried for a few years to become the synical I hookup with tons of people when i want to prick who doesnt believe in relationships, I think i may be starting to change. I havent exactly made it a huge deal, but idk it just makes me feel good to know some one cares. Shut up Im dramatic what ever.

So i hung out with sum people from work, that was cool kuz i dont work as much anymore so i missed them.

After that I wrote a song, im pumped, as soon as i finish the hook to it I will make it public. I was just in an emotional mood, and this chorus and progression and melody just like shot out of my hands. I didnt even try. Beautiful.

So then i realized I had an absolutely flat tire. Like dead. SOi went to get it fixed and i saw two of my fav milton grls. Coco and kaila mcrease ball fillin up their car with sum sageet. Straight. Nice kids, and yea coco looks like the grl deb from Napolean Dynamite, sept cute kuz she doesnt dress like a tool. If we put a side pony tail, an ugly sweater and like made her look weird shed resmble deb. haha shes gonna kill me for that. Anyway then I talked to Samantha and I might go see Godspell slash talk to my former Piano/Theory teacher about startin advanced lesssons for the summer.

After that i went home, worked on my song a little more, cleaned and picked up DIana. We hung out, did nothing that would be deemed exciting by most people, but we got a chance to be alone, to talk, and w/e Its gay but i had a fantastic time and its the first time in a while where i feel like i dont have much to bitch about anymore. SoO fellow emo kids would be upset right now haha.

PS i met dianas older brother, who I was told was very protective and would like grill me, but no he was wicked chill and he even ended the convo with "hey take it easy man have a safe drive home." Uhh not reely mean if u ask me, so dont believe the hype about people is the lesson for today kids.

ANyway today Bri guy came over to pick up Min's amp kuz AR is playin battle of the bands at Rox Latin. Check it ouf if u can. I cant, but still. GOod luck fellas. ALso they are playin BCN battle of the bands. As you know standing down however is temporarily on freeze frame because of groundations, time restrictions etc.

But today I am going to write songs with D wetz, piano player/Sax player of the new formation Stealth Fox(i think thats the name, formerly NJC new jam coatlition) Its a funk/Jazz/Jam mixture that is always changing. It started off kinda jammish, and due to the style of drumming I prefer it is taking kind of a fusion route which fuckin aye is cool because i love fusion hence why i play it. Band is comprised of Derek WEtzl who rocks the keys and horns writes alot. Jay Costa, guitar, and melody man. John Draper, bass, upright and electric as well as drums when needed lol. Kid is the man...and myself Pete Simonelli on drums and tech. Maybe throwin down sum vocals, sum acapellas, some w/e . Its fun, creative, and it pushes to be differnt and expand musicality. AWww skeet.

So watch out for that, as well as STD, as well as Hopeless existance and a lil sum sum. got my hands full son

Lastly, if anyone and i mean ANYONE is having a big ass party such as graduation, sweet sixteen, 18th party, 21st, wedding, anniversary, ANYTHING and u need an experienced DJ call me. I have state of the art equipment, i provide a club style bumping music with severe bass, a light show for the club feel, wireless microphones for dedications, and an extensive song library. Tell me in advance the style of music u want and u got it. I will beat any DJ's price that u quote to me. Im serious, i already have gigs but why not more....contact me

For now im off to write

"You dont know what you've had
Till you throw it all away
ANd i cant expect you to trust me
Or To throw caution to the wind
BUt Im asking anyway"

Long tIME NO update

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 22:22:42 GMT

Hey boys and girls.....

okay so this weeekend recorded a bit, hung out with friends. Almost got hit with a frying pan.........Allow me to explain

Okay well it seems that wen i said "i was expecting to get slapped" to one of the girls because i was making creepy comments, My brothers friend Mike decides to slap me. Legit across the face...a good slap. So i ran upstairs and grabbed farberwear spatulas and broke one over him. He got heated and chased me with a frying pan......I lockedmyself in the bathroom and came out with aerosol threatening to Blind him but he hit me anyway.......Not fun

Oh yea it was also mikes b day.....we went to wolly.....aiie not to awesome but end of the night was hilarious......Chill evening in the simo household. Samuri Adams and his posse showed up. ahaha those of you who know...........

anyway thats all for the weekend
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However during the week it has become aparent to me that the kids who are supposed to be the anti violence, super unity crews are the most fuckin fake scene kids ive ever met. And also the crews who are all about FSU and beating kids down are the gayest fuckin kids ive ever seen. First off dont tell me what i can and cant like or can and cant have an opinion on based on how i dress u fuck stains. I mean if u have to dress up in straight dickies and wear chuck converses and chains and fuckin tight shirts and reject certain kinds of music because its not the same and u have to say certain things u are possibly the biggest poser ever. I give props to the kid whos wearin a fuckin sweater and kahkis with glasses and his hair combed over nicely dressed from american eagle who goes to a Streetlight Manifesto show over those fucks who dress the part. Secondly, u hardcore fags that thing ur a badass because u dont drink or smoke. Thats ur decision dont force ur vegan sXe ways on me ur sposed to be about unity and shit so keep ur shit in ur own union. Clever huh? Anyway practice ur stupid mosh pit dance moves all u want infront of ur mirror while wearin ur moms pantyhose u fags because if u ever run thru a pit flailin ur shit like that and u hit me ill be the first one to drop kick the biggest one of u in the balls. Ur all gay just watch the fuckin show. Stop wearin the shirts with ur brethren names on them and thinking ur huge fat friend is tough hes fat hes not arnold. Drink a beer relax and stop sucker punching twelve year olds. honestly its fine to mosh but dont kick em wen their down lets keep it moderately civilized. U wanna kill sumone kill eachother at ur stupid hardcore shows. Leave the rest of us who actually wanna see the band alone. I always see a few "normal"(hate that worrd) kids at sXe shows and they always get beat down.......how bout u beat eachother down and leave us alone honestly ur wastes of life. ON to the thugs. Stop lookin at me in my car because i have a better system then u yet im wearin an argyle sweater and im whiter then skim milk. Ya i have deisel Audiobahn subs in my car. So what i wanna listen to Doctor Dre once in a while? Fuck u dont gimme the finger just kuz ur driving a beat up ford escor with a tape deck. Dont make fun of me sayin i cant make beats wen i talk about workin in my studio. You cant do shit, u cant rap, u cant make a beat u couldnt run a piece of electronic musical equipment if ur life depended on it...one of those kids actually said to me wen i said this guy i can run a cd player i aint stupid......laughter.............SO dont judge me. I like it all......
ANd lastly.....u funk rock and jazz players do not look at me wen i ihave on my DKM t shirt and say oh hes a punk rocker he doesnt know anything about music.........I hate u, u think u can play these ridiculously stupid Kenny G esque solos completely out of whack shit that is theoretically correct but sounds like open ass because ur tryin to be differnt.....well stop, play sumthing palatable to a normal human being and stop ruinin music for everyone.

Im not saying im the king shit at music......Far from it....Im not saying i know everything about everything.....Im half a fuckin retard...........But honestly lately ive been gettin a lot of shit for these gay reasons and u know........its pissing me off, because ur all just as fuckin queer as u say i am........

AS for the rest of u have a lovely day :-D

"How can we find the truth
WHen you shower me with lies
How can i learn to love you
WHen theres deciet behind your eyes
I put up this sheld of broken heart
Syndrom easily cured
But i have feelings for you
Feelings that can no longer be easily ignored"

HOly Carpe Diem

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 04:03:35 GMT

Okay its been a while but here goes.............

Starting on the weekend

WE recorded a bit that was cool

Sunday i left for the family vaca chill time in NH

it was so fun. WE went to the cabin, snow mobiled, four wheeled and just kicked it. We hung out watched movies ate, relaxed it was so good. Anywho i got home and it was Minsickles b day. Solid we went to wolly and kinda fucked around but w/e i partied. Then the grls came back to my crib with bob and P devs and VEk nasty. So they left but the party bumped till like 4 30 AM. Of course we made a mess, smoked stogie Ahs and drank. I fell asleep but the boys were up all nite. Then kaila shows up at my door at nine am? okay random......i offered to let u sleep there but nah just wake me up mad early to get a ride to ur house ahaha ur a legit clown.

Tonite i hung out with bob and P devs in the day and at nite hung with Mull Phil and mins. Then phil and mins bounced and i went out for a bit with a few special friends. Just long enough to party. Then i came homoe and stine and the kelly sisters came by to have sum tea and be like yo watup kid.. Now im sittin around with my incense and pondering my next move. Anyway im havin a great life. Things are goin well. I have people i care about im just feelin great...........Okay well im out now adios people

"lovers love eachother but the hatrid of emptiness
Oh but the lack there of, the missing times, ive had enough of this
I love you but i miss you, cant stand to see you
Im sorry i miss you but i cant stand to see you
I wrote this for you I hope I will never be you"

By the way

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 01:03:06 GMT

Good Picture considering

Kinda my new gig

You made me who i am today.....and for that, I will kill you.

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 00:53:26 GMT

You dont make me hate life.
You make me love to hate most things in it.

This ones a legit entry.

As much as I want to say i hate you, i cant. People tell me to say it, "go ahead itll make u feel better," but its just a lie. The truth is you mean more to me then you will ever know. To quote Eric Clapton....."how many times must i say i love you, before you finally understand"

This weekend was good and bad. I had a bad night friday kinda but it was no ones fault but mine. I let alot of things get to me. Now im not saying that things shouldnt get to me, because its not the whole relationship thing gettin to me it was actually a personal issue that was really scary. but i have faith in god and im sure it will be okay.

then saturday was kinda key. Well i got up and did hw. Then i cleaned and shit. But at night mad people stopped by.. Meg and diana came by and we watched half baked. Then mike, al, joe, rin and kaila stopped by. Yee.............good times. I love my braintree grls. Legit sweet hearts. Also Phil was at Mudvayne and called me so i could hear sum tunes. Phil and mull called me just to tell me about the drummers kit........such good kids. Anyway today i worked from 6-12 then jammed with the NJC. Laid down sum funk and sum blues and even sum death metal ahaha. The latin shit were doin is tite tho. Anyway it as fun then i chilled with phil and stine and me and phil went out to dinner and then bought valentine stuff.

Best thing ever......WEn life sucks asshole but you realize u have the greatest crew ever......143 STD+friends.........u all know who u are and i love everyone of u...

TTFN im outski

lata

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 00:45:33 GMT

Breathe Shine and seek to mend
All the promises that you make
so eat sleep and die by your word
A life of love, is yours to take

Hold my hand and strike me down
Exploit my feelings for you
Because I am too blind to see
That this bullshit is nothing new

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 00:42:34 GMT

So i walk this empty streeT
Roads paved with cliche
And i sick of the tongue in cheek
The emptyness has left me feelings this way
All the lies in the world couldnt add up to one truth
The fact is no matter how much you kill me I can only love you

Promises made promises to keep
So i come to your door
I find that you are still asleep
Only to be let down once more
And all the pain i feel cant equal one minute of joy
But they say that no matter what, it will be sunny again some day

All i want to do is talk
But you just cant give me a shot
But no matter how fucking hard i try
You'd rather ignore me then hear my thoughts
But we understand eachother oh so well
And if your love equates the sinfulness then may god let me burn in hell.

The way it always is

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 00:30:56 GMT

there's always 2 sides to every story
boy: i saw her today
girl: i saw him today
boy: it seems like it's been forever
girl: i wonder if he still cares
boy: she looked even better than before
boy: i couldn't stop staring at her
boy: i asked her how things were going
girl: i asked about his new girl
boy: i'd choose her over any girl
girl: he's probably really happy
boy: i hate life
boy: i couldn't even look at her without starting to cry
girl: he didn't even look at me
boy: i told her i missed her
girl: i knew he hadn't
boy: i sincerely meant it
girl: he didn't mean it
boy: i love her
girl: he really loves this new girl : -/
boy: i held her for one last time....
girl: he gave me a friendly hug
boy: then i went home and cried
girl: then i went home and cried
boy: i lost her
boy:i still love her
girl: i'll always love him

ALOT is missing

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 02:31:36 GMT

So this weekend i did sum fun stuff. Frida me and costola went to stine been and kels basket ball game. Tite, then we hung out with them. It was such a chill evening. I worked on a piano part on her keys. Then sat i hung out with my braintree buddies Dianna and meg. WE watched who framed roger rabbit. Tru that movie is fuckin ill. Yea well they ahted it but me and phil love it. WE had a very fun evening. Then sunday SUPERBOWL. Yea son we kicked ass. That night was also very fun. Best in a while. it was at mikes for a bit then me and phil went to stines. Good times with stine and kel and munch. Funny pictures to prove it. No big deal. Ive been confused alot lately, and i still am but im being complacent and keeping myself grounded. Idc about alot of things i used to yet im more passinoate about others. I want to be the idea musician. I want to learn everyhting about everything/. IM back into piano alot. Wrote a song. Love it. Idk im feeling pumped and im just pretending to be happy. Imagine wen im reely happy again.. YAY....anywho i just wanna take this time to say i have the best friends in the world and i love them without them i wouldnt be here. You kno who you are but this weeks heros are phil and stine. No doubt no doubt. Course meg jumped in too kuz shes lovely. OKay well im out im tired and rambling. iM SURE ill have more to add kuz i forgot stuff....Peace out

a hundred random fuckin things dude

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 04:59:08 GMT

1.) I hate how girls are manipulative, and always get out of looking bad
2.)I hate when my guy friends act different around girls
3.) I hate when girls get mad when I am just me around them
4.) I hate when i act fake around those same girls and they yell at me for that
5.) I love meeting poeple
6.) My Uncle Mike is the only 40 sumthin year old besides my dad who i think of as a friend
7.)I lied, i love brenda at my work
8.) My dad may be mario, but he is the fuckin best musician and best role model i can think of for me
9.) I would have no friends or plans any given day without STD
10.) I hate the OC, the following, and the away messages.
11.) I rep the E like its my job
12.) I am me, love it or leave it Im still me
13.) I still care, but i wont change, but i like to be loved
14.) I love shoes and clothes
15.) I shop alot, esp at Pac Sun
16.) I want my lip pierced but I am afraid it will hurt and ill cry and itll look bad
17.) I highlight my hair alot.
18.) Pink isnt gay, but its not my favorite color!
19.) I hate fights
20.) Im not a sports fan really.
21.) Baseball can suck my left and right ball
22.) I love to waste money
23.) I dont have dreams, not even sex ones.
24.) I dont eat alot for a big kid, but if you put an Italian Sub infront of me with no tomatoes, extra hots, pickles, and sum oil.......LATA SUB
25.) Sub Galley In hingham is the best place to get an itallian sub in all of New Engliand.
26.) Coke out does pepsi in my book
27.) Soccer is almost as gay as baseball
28.) I realize studying music theory is gay to sports fanatics
29.) I wish i could play better ostinattos.
30.) I wish certain relationships worked out....*miss you*
31.) Im glad certain people are happy.*love you*
32.) I enjoy talking to random girls and later becoming friends with them
33.) I am not shy, but I do become randomly scared to fall on my face
34.) I feel like i should feel that I have wasted time in school, and should wish to do it all over, but i dont.
35.) I love writing poems, even shitty cliched ones.
36.) I over analyze everything
37.) In the summer i only swim to stay cool, id rather drive around, or play football, or do other things then sit at a beach or pool, i like to be active
38.) I dont tan well.......i kinda burn, then go back to pale
39.) I would choose a pool over a beach because theres a divingboard, two levels of deepness, no sand to wash off, and you can invite who you want not just chill with a billion people and risk seein sumone u dont want to
40.) I hate how girls can fuck me over emotionally, feel no remourse about it, and when i snap back, make me feel terrible
41.) i hate how girls can make me forgive them
42.) I hate how I lead girls on(unintentionally)
43.) I hate being horny
44.) I hate how everything relates back to girls
45.) I cant classify myself as anything.
46.) I dont look in mirrors because im conceited but because im nervous and checking up on myself
47.) I talk to myself.........a lot
48.) I hate pearl drums
49.) i dont like eminem as a person
50.) i only disslike country music as a whole, and kenny G(not music)
51.) I love getting phone calls at late hours, and I answer it and im pissed like why are you calling and they're like Oh i just wanted to talk to you.
52.) I love when a girl puts HER arms around ME. it makes me feel wanted/important
53.) I LOVE cofffe.
54.) I dont have a "type" because people describe types as physical, and i go for internal
55.) i like cute girls over HOT girls
56.) I like the beatles
57.) i hate U2, i hate Elton John, I hate COUNTRY TOO
58.) i love to confuse people
59.) I feel that i can hookup with any girl, except the one i want to.
60.) Shy people scary me
61.) I love patterns
62.) I act like the man, but if you get me in a serious mood im very serious
63.) I love looking into a girls eyes right before we kiss
64.) I LOVE when its time to leave, and a grl blocks the door and just tilts her head and says, no dont leave yet, and you just know
65.) I love friends who are only friends, girls who are objective, yet girly and always there for u, and guys who couldnt be bad friends if they tried
66.) I HATE TOUGH GUYS
67.) I struggle to over come random bouts of maturity and act out to do so.
68.) I love nicknames, esp creating them randomly
69.) I love Jazz Music
70.) I wash my hands alot.
71.) Belly button rings are a huge turn on.
72.) Girls who are tan but lack tan lines, are even hottter, yet i cannot explain why
73.) I am one of few guys who will admit the first thing i notice on a girl, is her hair then her smile, then her outfit and THEN her physical like sexual stuff.
74.) I can push anyones buttons
75.) However, i can make anyone in a better mood/frame of mind.
76.) I am very persuasive and sometimes i use that for wrong doing :-\
77.) I am not curious about other parts of the world because i barely know about mine
78.) I am very trusting of too many people
79.) Getting a job and moving into the real world has made me synical
80.) I over react to the smallest things when Im having a bad day,
81.) when i dont have a point i just say things like FUCK YOU..or NO YOUR THE MAN
82.) I abbreviate alot of things example.......Lata Turks(no more turkey) Stereotypical becomes stereotips. get it?
83.) Smoking ciggaretes like makes me already put u at a lower level, idk i just detest it.
84.) I have a tendency to come off creepy because im really open with what i do/want
85.) I would stick by my friends, no matter how wrong they were
86.) I seek to have a basic knowlege of any instrument i come in contact with
87.) I dont want to write symphonies, just good songs, or good solos.
88.) i hate being in pictures
89.) I cant smile for pictures idk why
90.) i used to have braces
91.) i love talking on the phone at all times
92.) I come on strong all the time
93.) i really wish i could draw
94.) Im not a fan of beer, it tastes bad, but hard alc is good
95.) I dont have any problem with cops what so ever
96.) I would never cheat on a girl
97.) I wear only boxer briefs
98.) I love when girls dont get dressed up, legit no makeup scrub it and still look cute
99.) Most girls look good with hair down, and glasses
100.) I believe in love at first sight.

Why is life confusing

Fri, 04 Feb 2005 01:19:48 GMT

Back to realjournals. Why can i never figure wat i want out. Let me say this. I feel and have always said anyone can hookup with anyone. Girls are in control of hooking up, but you are in control as long as u let them think they are, and u can be patient. Anywho. I have always maintained that i could pull of any grl, now i feel like thats true except the grls that really matter to me. How does it feel to hookup with who ever i want except who i want to. It sucks. okay u know what else sucks, when something happens to u and u have to use indirect pronouns to tell ur friend the story, and leave details out, and u cant unload on sumone and get it off ur chest so u have to like talk to ur notebook, or ur posters in ur room. So ur in a bubble of shit and ur suffering alone within ur own lil biosphere of hell. ahaha its such a cliche but it fuckin sucks. YEA

anyway

Today we had a student music teacher
RISK
Not fun, idk im not used to her or maybe she sucks. But myself and kelly and wetz held it down pretty well. None of us are particularly vocal in the class, we keep to ourselves, but sum kids were suckin ASS today, but we did decently/. well kelly and wetz always do but i was pumped that i was all over minor solfeggio.

Mins is back at bc. sorry dude, i feel bad for you, but im stuck there i accepted it.

okay well im off to go to bed, i feel bad idk why just tired.

peace out skeets

"Every time you cut me down
i wanna get back up
tell you right to your face
You the one whos out of luck
The times are running low
The shields are at bay
So without hesitation
tell me what you wanna say..........."

i hate you

Ah skeet skeet skeet skeet god damn

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 00:45:12 GMT

TEN Random Things About Me

10 :: I like Pink yet im straight
09 :: I have on black underwear
08 :: I wear glasses
07 :: my eyes are hazel
06 :: i have a caffene addiction
05 :: i love shoes and clothes
04 :: My birthday is a day before 9/11
03 :: I like Funk music
02 :: I have retainers
01 :: I love cuddling

NINE Cool Places I've Been
09 :: Backstage at blue man group
08 :: Backstage at Avalon alot
07 :: Played one on one On the fleet center Floor
06 :: In the celtics locker rooms
05 :: The Zildjian Factory
04 :: Im boring
03 :: Im boring
still boring

EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die
08 :: get married
07 :: sell out a show
06 :: get my parents a house
05 :: Have a drum endorsement
04 :: Be happy in a job
03 :: Buy a fast car
02 :: Go to Berklee
01 :: have no regrets

SEVEN Ways To Win My Heart
07 :: Tell me you love me
06 :: Play me a song on guitar
05 :: Call me just because u want to talk to me
04 :: Kiss me, not just when i try and kiss u
03 :: Be yourself
02 :: deal with my bullshit
01 :: enjoy sappy romantic things

SIX Things I Believe In
06 :: love
05 :: God
04 :: Life after death
03 :: soul mates
02 :: Ghosts
01 :: total happiness

FIVE Things I'm Afraid Of
05 :: Dark
04 :: death
03 :: being alone
02 :: spiders
01 :: violence

FOUR Of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom
04 :: My bed
03 :: My porn ahahaha
02 :: my pre studio
01 :: my rosary beads

THREE Things I Do Everyday
03 :: pray
02 :: laugh
01 :: write

TWO Things I Am Trying Not To Do Right Now
02 :: Homework
01 :: Think about report cards

ONE Person I Want To See Right Now
01 :: My love

Whoo na na na na........Zim Zimma

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 00:20:42 GMT

Hey, random mood. Anyway how was everyones day? Dont speak up all at once. Okay weekend recap. First off i havent had school since last wed,,,,, STRAHT... SO we had it friday because freshman sophs had a fuckin semiformal.......aiie kinda beat, i was bankin on the "its to expensive to fire up the boilers for one random day" argument but they were already on kuz the money had been spent on semi, RISK. OKay so after that i went home and it was beat kuz i was gonna have a jam and it didnt happen on thurs. so Friday fuckin ill Jam sesison. Mijie guy and Sills came by, we played sum incubus, and then wrote two songs. Legit named Pink and Blue. SEt up a few mics, ripped a jam and bam. Not bad. WE then threw down an ill fusision bass line over like a 12/8 shuffle with sum slowhand clapton bluesy guitar shit compliments of sills. SIck. Then we hit up a quick little rippa. No biggie i was just chillin tho. Sat family party here. It was my grandmas like three year remembrance mass, but we also decided my new baby Cousin Paige Aislyn Rowan was going to be babptised that day. A life being brought into the catholic church on a day when one was leaving it. Full circle type thing huh? Pretty neat. So we had mad people back to the crib and it was a rippa. Right as i was goin out i got snagged back in to lay down the customary Jam with my cousin chris, its uncle mark and lYnn's first time seein this jam, it wasnt up to par because were runnin short on time and material, but they loved it. I also met al, my uncles friend, he lives in ENgland and is in the RAF. (Royal Air Force) ahhh sick. Hes the fuckin MAN. Loves rugby, loves radiohead, loves beer. haha. the man. Anywho. Fell asleep at ahh wait.........I DIDNT. and i was in work at 6 30 and then went from there to a four hour SAT class then home. Fuck that shit. But thanks for the ride Brianna. ANywho oh yea Meg and D bro and JImbo came over on sat nite. I wasnt with it but it was fun. and JIms the man, and My biffle is chill and dbro is spanish. ahaha. okay well im out, and im goin to crash leave comments, i like wen people say shit. Lata

"i dont know what to say anymore
Verbal banks running dry
I have no sorrow to express
no happyness, no feelings, so I wont try.
No witty retorts, no cunning remarks
No anicdotes worth your time
No stories to repeat So stay in your seats
Because I have come up short in my mind"

DO IT ANYTHING........ULL SEE WHAT IM REALLY LIKE YOU DONT KNOW ME

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 05:17:10 GMT

I want everyone who reads this to ask me 4 questions. Any 4, no matter how personal, dirty, private, or random. I have to answer them honestly. In turn, you have to post this message in your own journal and you have to answer the questions that are asked to you. and if you DO NOT have a livejournal leave your name.

Time to steal shit from Bob

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 20:38:59 GMT

A - age: 17
B - band listening to right now: Greenday Im very dissapointed in their new shit, and that they now follow backing tracks live.
C - crush: no idea anymore
D - dad's name: Peter
E - easiest person to talk to: male: Phil bob mike and kev usually female: lauren, used to be kaila hopefully still will be
F - favorite bands at the moment: Senses fail, Beatles
G - gummy bears or gummy worms: neither
H - hometown: Weymouth
I - instruments: Guitar, bass, drums, vibes, piano, bagpipe.........u get the idea
K - kids: yea all over the place.? no
L - longest car ride ever: goin to the cape seemed long the other day because it was such a fuckin traffic jam
M - mom's name: Judi(not the spelling)
N - nicknames: Simo, Bison
O - one wish: to find a grl who i think is fuckin gorgeous, and still connect with her on another level. IM tryin
P - phobia [s] : Creatures that arent human or dog, Horses scare me kuz of their teeth, darkness, death
Q - favorite quote: "Ony god can judge me"-tupac
R - reason to smile: im still here
S - song you sang last:boulevard of broken dreams EH but only to learn dearnst harmnoies(the bassist)
T - time you woke up [today]: 12 30
U - unknown fact about me: im pretty open, idk most know alot about me
V - vegetable you hate: tomato, okay its a fruit, but i hate it and im not a fan of sprouts
W - worst habit(s): biting finger nails, being slutty
X - x-rays you've had: ankles wrists thumb knees foot neck
Y - yummy food : Salad HAHAHA make fun of me cool?
Z - zodiac sign : Virgo